so where do i begin...
Recently i went through all of my drawings from childhood till now.
A lot of em i have lost but those that remain i cherish them the most and keep them safe.
I realize now how precious they are to me even though most of them are terribly drawn.
However, i couldn't help but notice one major thing, as i grew older i've drawn less and less
I have dozens of badly drawn stuff from my childhood but only a few drawings i created as i grew up.
This had gotten me wondering when did this transition happen??! When did i start putting art on the back burner in relation to everything else??!
As a kid i could draw endlessly but now i very rarely make something. Usually once or twice in an year.
I realize now that in the rush of life i had almost given up on my art and i find this revelation quite scary.
I realized it quite late that art is a very important part of my life. It's been with me for as long as i can remember but i only understood what it meant to me when i was in high school.
I made some great friends during that time who helped me realize my potential and who inspired me to improve my skills.
I never took any kind of formal lessons in art and made everything with what i learned through observations over the years.
Since i never learned basics i rely heavily on reference images which is something i'm trying to get over now.
I watch videos and read materials to gain knowledge and practice as much as i can.
Still how different my art looks when i make stuff from my imagination from the ones i make using reference makes me doubt if i have ever improved in all this time.
It leaves me scared, frustrated and in tears as i doubt if i'll ever be a good artist.
I'm trying to get more serious about my art and draw as often as i could and improve my techniques but the process is slow.
Though one thing i'm certain of now is that i never want to stop drawing ever and i'll never neglect my art ever again.
I'm at peace whenever i am creating something and it's always motivating to know that my art is appreciated.
I have a long way to go and so much to learn but i'm positive i'll grow as an artist as long as i don't give up and keep practicing.
Doubts and fears keep bogging me down from time to time but i'm determined to overcome them...
ps: Well that was a very long talk but i needed to put it out there... thank you everyone who appreciates my art, it means a lot to me and also thanks to anyone who will read this... you people are the best.. bless you all!!!